So, I just got off my first ever Best of Both Worlds Patreon monthly Zoom meet up, which was all about healthy habits, tracking stuff, etc….. i.e. MY JAM!!
But I had never attended one of these before, so for some reason, I felt super nervous about actually talking and showing my face to a group of 40+ strangers. (Even though these are mostly all people who participate in the comments on SHU and LVK’s blogs, or even read my blog!! (THANK YOU to several people who wrote in the chat comments that they love my blog!!! That literally made my day.)
So, I “know” (virtually, anyway) at least several of them.
I feel so disappointed in myself for being almost 40 years old and still struggling with this sort of thing. I wouldn’t say I have true social anxiety, but…. kind of? At least in new situations. I’m just always hesitant to talk at first, even though based on how many words I write here, I clearly have plenty to say. 🤣
Not really sure why this is, but I’ve always been this way. And I HATE this about myself!! Confidence has just never been my forte, and I’m so tired of it. Ugh.
It was a super fun meet up, though! It was completely ridiculous for me to be nervous about it. The topics were right up my alley, and everyone had interesting things to say. I really enjoyed it!
But I still sat there for at least the first 20 minutes, muted, with my camera off, like a creepy little lurker. LOL.
THANKFULLY, Sarah kind of called me out, and I then at least engaged in the chat discussion, and even talked once toward the end!! I think I just needed to kind of “scope it out” this time, and next time I’ll feel comfortable participating more, with camera on and everything, like a grown up. 😄
Everyone else seemed perfectly comfortable and natural, zero issues, apparently, and we couldn’t have had better hosts running the meeting, so this is clearly a “me” problem. Sigh. Actually, believe it or not, this blog has helped me to put myself out there so much more than I normally would have in the past. And I’ve had to do more video calls/ speaking/presenting at work lately, too, which is helping as well. (My 10+ years as a floor nurse before this job didn’t do much for building public speaking skills….)
Once I’m comfortable, I’m a total chatterbox, though! I’m so weird.
Anyway! It was a great discussion, and I’m excited to be part of the Patreon community. 🙂 If you haven’t joined, you should!!
On an unrelated note, who wants to see some stuff I ate yesterday???? 😂😂
Lunch= romaine, arugula, apple, parmesan, chicken, salsa verde, black pepper
Dinner= “molletes” (1/2 of a telera roll, refried beans, cheese, Ivan’s fresh pico de gallo), plus shrimp and avocado!) THIS MEAL WAS AMAZING. Hard to feel like I’m “restricting” myself when I can eat stuff like this…. yum yum yum.
Breakfast (today)= a modified mollete (made on a plain mini-bagel (only 1/2 shown, I had already eaten the other half!) plus the beans and cheese and pico), plus 2 egg whites with 1.6 oz shredded chicken, more pico, and salsa verde. This meal had 32 grams of protein!
I am grateful for SHU encouraging me to share in the Patreon- it was the little boost I needed. 🙂 And also so grateful for the kind words from some blog readers. ❤