I have a teenager. A 13 year-old.
What in the WHAT just happened?!?!?!??!
I am seriously having the hardest time wrapping my head around this. Not that this is “brand new information“…I mean, they turn 1, then 2, then 3….and so on and so forth. I have personally experienced 37 birthdays so far, so I get the idea of how this works. 🙂
It just….goes so fast! I realized the other day that Ethan is going into 7th grade this year, which means we have exactly 6 more school years with him home. 6 years!! That’s it.
We are officially over the 2/3 way mark to 18.
I do love seeing each different stage, and I gotta be honest, 13 is WAY easier so far than 3 (case in point: it’s 8:30 a.m. and he is still sleeping AND he didn’t wake me up once all night). I’m not sure that I would actually turn back the hands of time, if I could. (Well, maybe just like, temporarily, for old time’s sake, to see them little again.)
I don’t know. I love the independent kiddos they are becoming, and it’s so fun seeing them grow into real young adults! It’s awesome having real conversations with them that don’t involve people like Mickey Mouse or Thomas the Train. 🙂 And of course, DAILY LIFE is just 1,000 times easier when people can dress themselves, feed themselves, and bonus- use the toilet!! hahaha!!
It still makes me sad, though. I am not the best with change, and I have a very nostalgic type personality. I get sad when things end and I get misty eyed sometimes remembering special moments, vacations, memories, etc.
So, every year on Ethan’s birthday I have mixed emotions, especially since he is the older of the two. He’s always the first one to break into “new age territory”. And, he was my first baby! He’ll always be the milestone marker of the family.
I can’t wait to see who the boys ultimately become. Where will they go to school? What will they study? Who will they marry?! Where will they live? What will their hobbies be as adults? I pray they will be HAPPY. And kind. And good people!
But I, along with probably every other mother in the world, wish I could just slow things down a little bit…. stretch it out……linger….. 🙂
Unfortunately, time marches to a pretty steady drum beat, so I don’t think that’s in the cards. So, I will continue to make every effort to BE PRESENT, enjoy the time we have, preserve and cherish the memories (i.e. take a million photos), and do my best to step back and remember that this was all part of the plan all along. You have the baby, then they grow up, and then they eventually are ready to (hopefully) face the world on their own. (Eek!! 😬)
Happy Birthday, Ethan!! You are truly one of a kind, so intricate, unique and special.
I am grateful for Ethan. ❤