After writing the post yesterday about the “new normal”, I had COVID on the brain a little bit on and off all day. As you know, I’ve tried (and mostly have succeeded) to feel pretty okay about all of this- I have been trying to focus a lot on the positives and have actually enjoyed the slow down in many ways.
|Good news! One monthly goal accomplished- we did a puzzle. It was a pretty wimpy puzzle, but hey, it was a puzzle.
But the truth is, there are some big bummers for our family too. To name a few big ones:
– spring soccer seasons cancelled
Just super disappointing for the boys, who both love to play. It’s been part of our lives for years now, so it’s weird and sad to have no sidelines to sit at this season.
–Asher’s swim season indefinitely cancelled AND the big long course State meet in July has already been cancelled
This one is so hard. Asher loves to swim and has gotten pretty good at it. He had already qualified for the State competition in July and was really looking forward to (finally) being “top of his age group” for it. The age divisions are 10 and under, then 11-12. He will be 10 1/2 this summer, so on the older side of the 10&Under group. This past February he qualified too, but had just turned 10, so many kids were older than he. By the time the next State rolls around, he will have aged up to the next group, the times get harder to qualify for and if he does, he would be the bottom of the barrel again. This summer was supposed to be “his time to shine”. So, he’s really disappointed. Not to mention, there is no way to train for swimming if the pools are closed. (At least for soccer they can go outside and still kick a ball around…)
–vacations cancelled and no idea when we can travel again
Some people may know that we had a big trip planned over spring break to Europe. We were supposed to visit my sister, who lives in Ireland, followed by time in Paris and Amsterdam. I spent months planning this trip, making reservations, itineraries…It was going to be epic. Well, the virus hit right before we were supposed to leave, causing basically pandemonium in our household as we tried to figure out what to do.
We ended up rescheduling for August and went to Ivan’s parent’s house in Mexico instead (which was mostly unaffected at that time). August seemed like a sure bet back then when we picked the new dates. We, of course, had NO IDEA where this was all going to go and how extreme this would get. Now, the idea of traveling around Europe in August is seeming….unlikely. I get a headache just thinking about attempting to move or cancel it again. The extenuating circumstances cancellation policy for our ($$$ and already paid for..) Air BnB in Paris doesn’t extend into August (yet). So I am not even sure if or when they will let us cancel. I am just so disappointed. This trip was really, really important to us and it’s honestly heartbreaking to have it ripped out from under us, again.
We love to travel and our trips are always a major highlight of our year. If we could at least somehow KNOW when things would be back to normal and could plan trips for then, I feel like it would help to have something guaranteed to look forward to. This uncertainty is so draining and sad. (I repeat my disclaimer from yesterday- I know this is definitely a “first world problem” and a tiny one in the grand scheme of COVID problems. But, the fact of the matter is, I’m still disappointed, so, it’s still real).
–my work hours being cut
Obviously, any time financial security or stability is threatened, it’s stressful. For now we are okay with my required 30% hours reduction, but I have no idea where this is headed. Will we bounce right back to full time after the 8 weeks? Will it decrease further? Will it extend longer (that’s my hunch, but I have no idea really).
Some other bummers in our household:
-the kids miss their friends
-all of the fun end of school stuff being cancelled
-the kids missing almost half of a precious school year with their teachers and classmates, time they will never get back
-not being able to spend time with family. We usually get together with my parents A LOT and we love it. I miss them.
-missing going out to eat! We love the experience of going out to eat, sitting and relaxing and talking over a meal in a restaurant… and it’s been a long time now since we’ve been able to enjoy that (March 11th, to be exact- Ivan’s birthday dinner was our last night out!).
-Summer plans = Nonexistent at this point. The fate of Asher’s week long swim camp at a college is yet to be determined but not looking good. I’m not feeling that optimistic about other soccer camps, day camps, etc. that they would normally enjoy either. Ethan and his best friend were planning to try track. Instead, we basically have no plans at this point for summer and it stinks.
-my sister and family were supposed to come for an extended time in July. I was really looking forward to taking my little nieces to the zoo, maybe the Dells, watching fireworks together, swimming with the boys, to all the great parks around here, the botanical gardens…. Her girls are at perfect ages for so many fun outdoor summer activities and now we can’t do any of it. And, I’ve only met my baby nephew once at 5 months old, and he just turned 1. I was so looking forward to seeing his chubby little early toddler face in real life!
My girls!! I MISS them.
On that note, however, I am resolving to just let some of this be. Asher just started learning the piano sheet music for The Beatles’ “Let It Be”. (LOVE this song). So, we spent some time this week learning the lyrics, listening to the original and watching some You Tube videos about the Beatles.
When I find myself in times of trouble,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom,
let it be.
I just love these lyrics. As with most songs, we can take them and apply them really however we want to our own lives. (Apparently, mother “Mary” may be actually referring to Paul McCartney’s mother Mary who passed away from cancer when he was a young teen). But, as I think many others do as well, when I listen to this song I like to think of the Virgin Mary and the peace and comfort that she brings. 😊
Quick side note: Has anyone seen the movie “Yesterday”? The one where the Beatles suddenly disappear from the history of the Earth except for an aspiring young songwriter who does remember them- who then decides to take over all of their great songs as his own to kick start his career?
Ironically, that movie was on HBO the other night and Ivan and I were re-watching part of it before bed. There is such a funny scene where the kid tries to play his “new song- Let it Be” for his parents on the piano. They of course have never heard of the actual song and don’t really even care, so they keep interrupting him every two seconds and referring to the song as “Leave it Be” or “Let Him Be”….it cracked me up!
Steps: 11, 615
Meditate: omg I forgot!!! I didn’t do it right away in the morning and then was planning to do it after I walked in the evening…then I just totally spaced out and forgot!! Boo. Maybe I’ll do 10 minutes today to make up for it!
Read: 50 minutes
What are your biggest bummers about this whole time??
Have you seen the movie “Yesterday”? What’s your favorite Beatles song???
I have been thinking this week how grateful I am that I have a window in my kitchen. It’s one of those minor things that seems unimportant, but it brings me so many small moments of joy. I spend quite a bit of time standing at the sink, and I really love that I have a nice, big window there overlooking the yard. I enjoy looking out at the trees, the birds and the squirrels every day.
|Kitchen window view. Nothing overly special- no mountain or ocean views here- but it still makes me happy!