Today is the day! The kids go back to school today. Crazy.
Hard to believe that the last time they set foot in school for actual “school” purposes was Thursday, March 12th. We left for Mexico that afternoon and picked them up early from school. Who would have thought that they wouldn’t be going back until September 16??
They are excited to go back. They are less excited about needing to be up, ready and out the door by 7:35 this morning. 🙂
Yesterday I intended to try to “savor” the boys’ last day home. I booked a slot at the pool to go for a swim with Asher, as we did many times earlier in the summer. (We haven’t lately, as his real swim practices have picked back up.) I told him we could go get chicken biscuits after and sit outside like we sometimes would.
Well, we did. And overall, it was okay. But he was in a bad mood due to a disagreement with Ethan over something that happened earlier in the morning. So, he took it out on me. Finally I got him to snap out of it, but by then I was crabby.
The swimming felt good, and we did get our chicken biscuits, so that part was really nice. But when I got home, I’m not sure what happened. I started worrying about a bunch of stuff! Several minor things set me off, and then I just spiraled down the tubes.
I worried about a couple of specific things related to the boys. I worried about some stuff related to our house. I worried about some time that I wasted. I worried about things in the future that I want to turn out a certain way, but I can’t really control. I worried about something in the neighborhood that annoys me. I compared myself to someone online and then I worried about that.
Worry. Worry. Worry. I am a worrier.
I wish I could say that I’m not, but that would be a lie. I just am. I am constantly working on this.
I saved this image a few months ago and have looked back at it often when I get in these moods:
|image from 5amjoel|
I feel a little better just typing this, by admitting this to the world. (Or at least the small part of the world that reads my blog.) I am so much more aware of this about myself now than I used to be.